It feels so weird to be writing this, but I actually miss being around people. I'm usually the most introverted person ever, I don't like speaking to people, and just being around people really exhausts me.
But this last week has made me realise that maybe I'm not as introverted as I thought. Like, sure, if I'm in a large group of people, or if I'm with people I don't really know, then I won't talk much, and I will probably be on my phone instead of socialising. Because that's what I do. But the people I am friends with, or could be friends with, I'm actually pretty happy hanging out with.
So yeah, I actually miss people. In college, there is always someone playing guitar, or bass, or singing, or drumming on tables, or someone playing music really loudly, or watching Adventure Time, so it's never quiet. Literally, never. (I usually leave with a headache, every single day). Being at home this past week, it's been really silent, as it's just been me, alone. I actually miss the noise, and being surrounded by people. I actually had people I could talk to, if I wanted to. But at home, there's no one.
Another thing I actually miss about college is walking in and having someone to say hi to. I don't talk to anyone all day, because my parents and big sister are working, and my little sister is a teenager, so she sleeps all day.. This is probably a really pathetic post, but I miss people. I miss being around people with a similar mindset to me, and people who I can just talk to about random crap.. Hahah I don't even know, I'm so lonely!!
I miss my friends. Both my amazing friends from school, even though I only saw them a week ago, and my (only?) friend from college, who likes the Fearless Vampire Killers. Hopefully I'll be seeing them in the next few days, though!
On another, happier note, I've been trying to just write music. Not songs, not with lyrics, but just putting some chords together and seeing how it sounds. And it's actually really fun, and I feel like I might be getting somewhere with it. The thing with college is, despite my love for it, I never really get time to play guitar, which makes me sad, as I really enjoy it..
Okay, I have no idea what I'm on about any more, so I'm going to go now.
It's less than a week until Christmas!!! Yay!!!!!
Bye!
- Dottie.
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